In 1990 I almost died, spending two months in the hospital and coming home with a new heart valve and pacemaker. I was nineteen years old and the doctors told me I could expect to live until about forty; as I would need open heart every ten to twelve years to replace the porcine (pig tissue) valve and other complications were expected.
Check this out – that valve has lasted me 26 years! I had an ultrasound on my heart before starting chemotherapy and things looked fine. It was worn but still functioning and serving me well!
In 2013 I started suffering from SVTs (Severe Ventricular tachycardia) that were so bad they were interfering with my ability to function. My cardiologist referred me to a surgeon, we consulted and set a surgery date. I was on the table in pre-op and the doctor said the electrical problems in my heart (which he would cauterizing) were in a pretty risky spot and though he was willing to do the surgery, he suggested trying to manage them with medication. I walked out of the hospital, never filled the prescription, and the SVTs went away; I never had them again!
These are miracles. I am miraculous!
I need another one, stat.
The chemo has not been kind. My body is weak, and my heart valve has quit. I am having emergency open heart surgery tomorrow. I am counting on a few more miracles.
My cancer gets the chance to have a party through all this. I need the miracle of it staying put. And of course I need the miracle of getting through this surgery!
But, I EXPECT these miracles.
I look forward to giving you an update on the other side of this. I will live out my intention to be an instrument of peace. I’m not done here!
Peace and love, and all my light to all of you.